into thinking that alcohol helps with trading. It helps with pressure. But pressure is what helps you make good decisions. I had 10k from dol and i lost half of it... the other half i drank it... now i am back at square 0. I can make money in the market.. i just black out and wake up to weird ass trades..i was making money.... except when i make money i like to celebrate with vodka... I don't need 10k. if you cant make money with 300$ you will not make money with a million dollars. I have honed my skills so much in this 9 years to make money while i am sleeping. I just think its a shame that i cant because i drink too much. We could have all been millionares... now i have to go back to homeless shelters ... I am so good at making money in the futures market... i dont need any indicators or moving averages... i dont even need to look at the chart... just read the price. I trade crude oil and s&p 500 es which i dont want to trade during these times.
i still have money to make it.. the problem is i lost my passport at prospect park back in April when i was looking at ducks. Now i cant send a wire deposit to my broker... they keep asking me for id everywhere except trying to take a shit in a central park bathroom
i already passed the earn to trade 60 day test except i started drinking again... i made another test the 15 day combine except i canceled it
And I thought I had issues... Are you here to share strategy, look for a passport, an investor, an angel or a AAA psychoanalyst? Never say never, but how can you make it, unless you are a retired professional expert and a profitable trader who temporary lost his way because of alcohol. Even there I would have my doubts. I normally wouldn't even believe you but when the stories are so weird, they tend to be true. What are you looking for? Do you need help that is not in the form of cash, trading accounts or id?
I read some of your previous posts. You sound desperate. We are all different. But if I had some money and nothing to lose (and a passport) I would move away creating an environment shock. Places like NY and London can be deleterious when you go through issues, and they are definitely lonely. Trading is not the solution. Get some help at least, if you can't move away. Or get your passport and move somewhere far away and cheap. Make your life difficult by ordinary trouble and not trouble caused by your addictions. Kicking off an addiction requires determination and often help. I don't know if you can find any efficient help online or in a forum.
Why drink alcohol when you can drink water, why trade money when you can make money, some things are lost in translation because making money is like a second language for some, they will rarely speak it fluently but tell the native speaker that his speech is not correct...