When you were young or younger and "spunky" as you put it, it doesn't mean you didn't have a soul. Unless you have seriously hurt someone that you shouldn't have, you shouldn't feel guilty about what you did or did not do when you were young. Being young is not a crime. Getting "younger" with a bit of help from hormone therapy doesn't mean all of sudden you are not going to have a soul. LOL It's just a way of making you feel better, no different from taking vitamin and mineral supplements. Are you going to see no soul looking into the eyes of someone taking vitamin supplements? LOL It's a personal choice whether to take hormone therapy or not but there is nothing wrong with getting a bit of boost from taking hormones. When your body stops producing hormones, we get a bit of help from bioidentical hormones. Plenty of people still live a meaningful life after taking hormone therapy To me, I think the only way to find out if you have really seen "the light" is to take all the hormone supplements to get your youth back and to see if you have really changed or it's just the hormone talking like how @Overnight puts it.